Let me ask you a question:
What’s the worst thing you’ve ever done?
What do you hide from your friends?
What do you think they’d say if they knew?
Now…
That in mind…
What do they hide from you?
What would they really do, or think?
Do you want to know the sad truth?
They wouldn’t care all that much. You think you’re some holy terror, I’m sure. You think if you ever did get in a fight, man people would be shocked how angry you are, right? You think, man if someone messed with my kids, I teach them a lesson.
Don’t you?
Of course.
You have to. You have to think you COULD go crazy. You have to think you COULD make something happen. It’s a defense mechanism, a mental prophylactic against a world that can just plain fuck you up at any time.
Do you want to know what your friends would think?
They’d think, “how does this change ME?”
“what does this mean . . . for me…for my social calendar . . . for my reputation.”
They wouldn’t think, “oh my poor friend…what could have driven him to that?” because it’s just way down the list of thoughts and you’ll be gone before there’s time.
They wouldn’t think, “Oh jesus I was wrong about him,” unless you screw that friend over personally, because people aren’t wired to question their own judgment.
So if DO have a big bad past…keep your mouth shut, unless the stories are cool.
And if you don’t, be glad instead of telling yourself you could if you had too.
I could so kick your ass for that.
i don’t think anybody is really that interested in how bad ass anyone else is
i eat baby bunnies. and premature infants.
i also killed a man in reno, just to watch him die. but everyone’s heard that story by now.
Amen, bruthuh….good post!
its amazing how your life is so different from mine,
what you consider craziness, we consider natural and fine,
it’s amazing how my friends are different from yours,
they might not stand by me, but they’ll never leav eme on all fours…
Hmmm… Interesting thoughts. I think people are a lot more judgmental than you think, though. If what you told them did change their mind about you, they wouldn’t think of it as their previous opinions of you being wrong. They’d just be like “Wow… that guy’s a lot more fucked up than I thought. And he lied to me, too.”
Chuck prefers his friends leave him on all fours, if not too tired to be on all fours.
I have a ton of good stories about bad things that happened to me. Then someone asked me to tell a story and then commented at the end, “SIt down Rachel, your stories are insane.”
Yeesh everyone is a critic. Life is raw and I like to present it that way
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