Several of my friends have the same job as me. One of them is seemingly mystified as to why I quit – he likes what we do.
The truth is, I don’t mind it. My next job, I probably won’t like as well. But it has so many frustrating elements.
For example, my job isn’t important enough for me to be given working equipment. My job isn’t important enough for everyone doing it to even be completely trained. My job isn’t important enough for me to be supervised well.
My job IS imporatant enough for me to have a guy climb up my ass and set up camp over small mistakes. My job IS important enough for random things that go wrong when I’m not at work to get traced back to me, and for my boss too, with ONE FUCKING DAY of work left, leave me little smart-ass comments. How is my job not important enough for me to be properly empowered to do it, but important enough for me to get my ass chewed for not doing it? That doesn’t make sense. The other thing that goes on in this workplace is there’s a scapegoat effect – everyone blames shit, all the time, on the people that aren’t there. I’m talking all through the building, no one ever steps up. That’s why I’m pretty glad I’ve had friends that predate my job here as co-workers. That means even when I’m actually fucking up and eating shit at work (which isn’t unheard of) I know I’m not getting shit-talked behind my back, much less when I’m not actually doing anything wrong.
I’m bored of my fucking job. I’m resolved to avoid the situation of working 8 to pay for 16 every day, from now on. I’m resolved to be in charge of pinheads, instead of pinheads being in charge of me.
I’m so burnt out on this shit I do every day. Completely. My job is light office and computer work. It’s easy. Real easy. A fucking-chimp-could-do-it easy. But I’m just so sick of it that it makes me want to fucking vomit. I mean, it’ll be time to do some little, meaningless thing that will take ten fucking seconds, and I just don’t want to fucking do it, and every single task I do, I resonate with something screaming in my head that says “Don’t do this shit anymorethisisbullshityoushouldbedoingsomethingelse”
Now the fuckits are pretty contagious, and we’re a fuckit prone crew, and all of us are going through a bunch of shit in our personal lives right now, so why the fuck not just do some other fucking thing?